My mind, much like my life, is a messy, disorganized, stained glass mosaic. There are so many people I want to be. So many places I want to go. So many ideals I wish to pursue… I’ve been fortunate enough over this summer to continue my pursuit of the next rest-stop of my journey. I can’t say that I gave my 100% every day- but the progress is absolutely shining through.
With that said, I know I still have a lot to continue working towards, and a lot to let go. I’m currently in a phase of simulatenous retrograde and metamorphosis. I’m slowly coming to terms with many ideals, and even slower still putting my creative energies into a stable medium. I do feel a little let down that I didn’t accomplish what I originally set out to do… However, I’m extremely thankful for the paths I’ve taken over the past few months- the places I’ve been, the people I’ve met, the reflections I’ve had… At this exact moment in time, I can’t with any certainty promise a particular outcome. Hell, I don’t even know what outcome I currently want. This would be the perfect time to scrap this section of the website, and chalk it up to one of the numerous failures I’ve made in regards to my career… but I won’t. I’ll leave this as a moderate success. Maybe I won’t post every month- but I WILL post when there is reason to. Maybe I won’t be doing things the “standard” way- but as already discussed in Vlog 1, I’ve always been atypical, and I’m embracing it. Plus, it’s a great showcase to friends and students alike in regards to failing numerous times over. Eventually, I will be more than happy (and liberated!) to release Anastasia: Life After You, Love Letters To Suburbia, and the ever looming hypersigil that is 7 Minutes To Midnight- over five years in the works. These are my only current creative goals- goals that will only materialize when I’m of sound enough spirit and mind to pour my soul into them. I truly apologize to those select few that are actively watching and waiting from the sidelines. Please know that I TRULY appreciate you and your positive energy- even if it goes unspoken. I’m trying very hard to find myself and my way in this current season, and the fruits of my labor will surely not go unappreciated (as I’ve unfortunately feared for far too long). Suburbia is gone, but the memory haunts me every night. Soon enough, I’ll make everything right. Soon enough, I’ll reignite my Geist- and while you may be sick of hearing it, I’ll *eventually* be coming out swinging… Jut not Tonight. This is not an end… This is only the 100th beginning. Mark Alan Knapp Jr.
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